I found the perfect song….
Every time I feel alone
I can blame it on you
And I do
Oh you got me like a loaded gun
Golden sun
And the sky’s so blue
Oh we both know
That we want it
But we both know
You left me no choiceChaque fois que tu t’en vas
You just bring me down
Je pretends que tout va bien
So I count my tears
Till I get over you
Sometimes I watch the world go by
I wonder what it is like
Oh…To wake up every single day
Smile on your face
You never try
We both know
We can’t change it
But we both now
We’ll just have to face it
Chaque fois que tu t’en vas
You just bring me down
Je pretends que tout va bien
So I’m counting my tears
Till I get over you
If only I
Could give you up
Would I want to let you out?
From this soulbuzz baby
We both know
That we want it
But we both know
You left me no choice
Chaque fois que tu t’en vas
You just bring me down
Je pretends que tout va bien
Oh so I’m counting my tears
Till I get over you…. oh
Chaque fois que tu t’en vas
Je pretends que tout va bien
Oh we both know
That I’m not over you
La de la de aye ay
I’m not over you
it was wrong… but i’d do it again…
if u r the prank… then i am the fool…
my life won’t stop turning…
i want it to stop…
Break ups are hard…. especially since you put in so much into the relationship…
Been tending to my heart the last 3 days… honestly, I don’t know how the rest of you do it… going into one relationship after another.
I think I finally manage to feel calm after talking to sarahanne… lol… wise woman… 22 year old girl with the mind of a 150 years of experience… she said a lot of things that sounded so true… and made sense… i hope the old wise one will be right.
Do you believe in Karma?? I guess I never did… but maybe this will provide me wrong. I’ve heard words the pass days… fickle… childish… selfish… etc… but the one I never expected was minipulative…
Sadness…. Denial… Anger…. Acceptance… I’m half way through… i never thought I’d get through it… but I think I will… on the way to become that independant and carefree person I once was… being able to handle all the stress alone and not needing that one person to be there for me.
Today was the only day I felt calm for more than half a day… the first day in 5 days that I ate more than a glass of Nestam…
I’m taking one day at a time… realising each day that it isn’t worth all the tears… all the pain. It felt like we were walking together and I fell into a hole… you kept walking ahead not once turning around and I was left to climb out on my own. My feelings were never considered…
No more… I won’t settle… it’s over… i’m sorry if I seem heartless all of a sudden…
My parents were asking me what’s wrong… mum asked if there was something bothering me… dad asked if i had problems with friends…. did they think i’d tell them if they asked?? I’ve spent my life going through everything on my own… sorry, but I intend to continue on like that…
even fantasies hurt…. especially since that fantasy was once a reality…Â
 
 
thank you…
without you i’d have torn out what was left of myself…
i have now the people whom i shall not let go off….
you mean the world to me…
i cannot express how much you guys being there means to me…
bu… you r the best thing that came out of ite..
adz… not having u part of my life would be unimaginable…
sa… regardless of anything… u became my best friend
andrew… (even though I know u don’t approve of the relationship… u were still there when i needed you…)
gim… (spending ur last full day of freedom to accompany me…)
hariz… (just not hating me…. and still being there for me)
sherwin… (being there for me when i needed a bitch… hee)
ball…. (coming and abandoning everyone else when i needed u)
joan…
lynda…
yan…
the last few days would have been worse than hell…
I love u guys… thank you so much…
understand what?
that when u said once u got me u’ll never let me go…
u didn’t let me go…
u chucked my like a piece of rubbish…
u took a piece of my heart and i took a piece of urs
u took back urs….
stabbed mine till there was nothing left of it…
u’ll never hurt me…
cause u couldn’t bare it…
i’m so hurt i cry myself to sleep…
i wake up crying…
u always asked me…
‘do u know know much I love you?’
yah… i do…
In 2 days…
u started ignoring me…
u use to tell me when u’d have dinner with colleagues…
and tell me happily what u ate…
u’d make sure ur voice was the last one I heard every night…
it’s fitting that u got me matt…
cause I’m just like him now…
i use to plan my days out…
with you in them…
now I’m crawling my way through each day…
funny how u always told me to give u another chance…
when this is the first time u decided
and I never asked for anything…
just the truth…
when we split in Dec…
u’d still call…
we still spoke on the phone…
went out…
just like friends…
now….?
i don’t exist in your life…
i can understand that this doesn’t hurt u as much as it’s hurting me…
cause you found someone else…
that is the only thing I understand…
u guys tell me to be strong… because I am… well I’m not… I’m breaking up into pieces when I’m alone. They won’t stop coming… my heart won’t stop aching…Â i don’t want to wake up every morning feeling like this… i just want the pain to stop… please… just make it stop…
oh god…
even ur apologises are empty…
and you can still think about your show…
my god…
u never loved me…
i was sucked into a lie…
how could u do this to me…
