Hold me tight
& never let me go,
catch my tears
& take my fears away.
Kiss me goodnight
& take away my pain.
Hold my hand
& stand strong in times of difficulty.
Stay true to our love…
love me like you’ve never loved before.
Hurt me no more.
Our flower has bloomed!!! It’s been looking beautiful every day…. i hope it’ll stay this way for the next few days…. just love it. I’m loving it… this has been the longest lasting and most beautiful flower I’ve ever gotten. Hee… love you baby… even in all this insanity of mine… there’s one thing i do know for sure… i love you… thank you.
We barely get to see each other…
barely talk on the phone anymore…
don’t sms as often as we use to….
and when we do get to talk on phone,
it’s only for like 10 mins…
10 fucking minutes!
how do I know…?
cause that’s the amount of time we spent on the phone today…
so fucking pissed off right now…
school’s tougher than usually for her…
and I know how the F&B line works…
wished I didn’t…
then she’s made friends…
goes out playing pool and going over to friend’s places
I don’t even know about unless I ask…
if i don’t then i’m just fucking sitting around in the dark.
*sigh*
I know she says i’m thinking too much…
and that things are fine…
but I’m just not use to so little time together…
even the fact that she doesn’t seem to be bothered if we drift apart is scaring me…
just feeling so fucked up right now…
just wanna scream till my lungs burst…
sit on the edge of a cliff till my head is filled emptiness….
drown my sorrows and fill my blood with salt water….
thinking too much…. suffering on my own… driving myself to my own death…
can loving someone be so hard? can love be so insecure?
i need a break… from school… from family… from everything that’s been stressing me out… need time to relax and get my body, head and heart on the right path again…
dada…. what am i going to do? how? *sigh*… think i have like super super low self esteem or……..
just kill me now… pls…
