BSB - Love Is

Once there was a time
Love was just a myth
Just wasn’t for real
Didn’t exist
‘Til the day you came into my life
It forced me to think twice
I didn’t have too much
No I wasn’t rich
You came to believe someday I’d be more than this
That’s why to this day I am still your man
Cause you made me understand that..

Love is..
waking up to see your face
or kissing in the morning rain
At the end of the day
Backstreet Boys 

Purest Of Pain

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live with out you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.
I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.t
Vida, give me back...

Paranoia has taken over my life

With all the fears and paranoia in the last few days, it’s made me crazy. I don’t know what to believe and I don’t know what’s true and what’s not.

Things right now are all over the place. Da’s been overwhelmed with all the attention and I’m feeling abandoned, like everything is falling apart. Been wondering how much of everything the last 2 years was real.

Now you feel being pampered by a guy… then once your done, u come back? I can’t stick around and wait till you finish playing… once you finish getting what you want, then come looking for me. Just because of the moment you are in, you ignore everyone who was ever there for you… and when once the people who u thought were your friends leave and betray you, you come looking for us again. It doesn’t work like that…

I wish I could protect you from your mistakes but you have to fall and learn to climb back up urself. I can only hope for the best… and the lessons won’t be too hard on you.

Trying to be strong when times get hard is tough… you start feeling like the love isn’t very strong anymore… you been to think that everything is coming to an end…. you begin to think the worst of everything.  It is times like this that cause many of us to fall apart. I just think about everything that we’ve been through…. both hard and great times…. is it worth it? Fighting… sticking together… believing that things will get better. Right now, I still believe it… despite the fact that I feel like i’m in a ditch, i don’t think it is time to give up. Time is not up yet.

Tell me what to do… what’s going on…

Take my heart…
Hold it in the palm of you hand…
watch it beat…
Hold it tighter by the second…
It holds the scars…
the secrets…
the pain…
the truth…
the anger…
the happiness
It’s the cause of all my sufferings…
Take my heart…
Watch it beat…
Stop all my sufferings…