All Or Nothing

I know when he’s been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you’d realize
It’s over, over
It’s not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere’s got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older, older

You know I’d fight for you
But how I can fight someone who isn’t even there
I’ve had the rest of you now I want the best of you
I dont care if that’s not fair

Chorus:
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There’s no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it’s now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I’m sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart
But I don’t show it, show it
And then there’s times you look at me
As though I’m all that you can see
Those times I don’t believe it’s right
I know it, know it

Don’t make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I’ve had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It’s time for show and tell

Chorus

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you’ve got no more room
No room inside for me in your life
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There’s no where left to fall
It’s now or never

Chorus x2

the rings…

about a week ago, i went to couples lab and got a pair of rings…. the previous rings we had…. well, i kinda threw da’s into some where into her room. Haha….

anyway, the rings did end up being a little too big…. it only fits like the middle fingers perfectly…. we found out that we both fit size 13 perfectly so next time, that’s the size!!!

Sigh….

Da’s been swamped with tests this week and it’s been killing her. It doesn’t help that outside factors have been coming in between us… like the ring… she said it was misunderstanding and explained it immediately when she knew i found it… but that issue is supposed to be cleared. So I hope that things ACTUALLY going to be better and that the ring issue IS settled. I guess it just frustrates me that she doesn’t tell them about us that causes so many misunderstandings…
well, over the weekend on saturday Da was suppose to be with me and go for the Seventeen event at Cini with Cally… but she couldn’t make it because of her tests. But anyway, cally and I went with her sis n her sis’s friend…. everything went well. We had a pretty good time at the event… the movie was good too!!! Anyway at 5.30pm we went to this function room where we had to decorate a notebook in groups, with food and a make over…. took pics and neoprints…. had a goodie bag too!! Haha… Watched ‘Music and Lyrics’……. it was sweet and funny!!!

Sigh…. I just can’t wait for baby to get a break….

i miss u baby…  

a hard year ahead…

OOoohhh…. the weight…. been feeling extra fat over the last couple of days…. and that’s because i am fat!!!! Put a kg or 2 during the holiz… oh gosh…. actually gonna take up mum’s offer to the gym. Finally!! Plus gotta control what goes into that mouth of mine. AArrgghhh……… fine…. it’s the holidays right…? so it’s time to be healthy!!

Hmmm…. so while I shed of some weight, da’s going crazy in school…. i read in some Geomancy book that this isn’t a gd year for me. Went to Kino yest and remembered a book daniel mentioned by Lillian Too…. went to check it out… for those cows who believe in such things then beware…. the year 2007 is a bad one…. it has like 1 positive side to it… which i cannot remember what it is….

I read da’s one… apparently a very stressful and tiring year… but rewarding and actually very good. The rewards or whatever that happens this year will be remembered and affects even after 2007. They even said that she’ll be having loads of friends this year… hmmm….

Unfortunetly, for the both of us… it’s a tough year… a testie one…

I found it pretty cool… i actually wanted to get the cow and rabbit book… wahaha…. it was really fun to read….

I also bought rings… kinda to replace the one i threw and in the process lost in da’s house. BUT!!!! I think i bought it one size too big…. AArrgghh…. dummy da didn’t tell me she knew her ring size till this morning!! she said she wore a 14 and i bought a 15… kinda hope it fits her. cause it’s a little lose for me….

Another bowling selection this year but I doubt this time I will be going to support… sadly, she likes to keep things seperate between her friends n me… so if they are there, i can’t… which has been bugging me alot. Adz said to me when i met her in the begining of the holiz that I’m too understanding… maybe I’ve become too soft and all…. it does bug me a lot… and it’s starting to make me really uneasy… sigh…. trying to be supportive and optimistic at the same time is not as easy as said and done in situations like this.

AArrghh….. am I going to have to go through this hell for another 300 days?!

My Immortal

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

[chorus]
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

[chorus]

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

[chorus]

Evanescence

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