I’m ALL ALONE!!!!!

Posted on September 22, 2007 by alicia.
Categories: Mooings.

It’s Friday!! But I’m not gonna say ‘thank god it’s friday’ cause this is my last Friday holiday…. school starts Monday and I dread it… the timetable… the tests…. *sigh*….

This morning, i had to wake up pretty early… went to see Dada bowl at Yishun Safra… bought her fishball and sushi for breakfast…. would have bought her Mac but apparently the Mac breakfast at Yishun always gives us a stomach ache… so we’re gonna avoid it.

She didn’t bowl very well but still could get in… Da had to leave for St John’s Island today as well… As usual, I stuffed her bag with loads of things I knew she needed but didn’t have… *sigh*…lent her my camera too…. major worry there…. I also lent her my Oakley’s but I don’t really care about that… I’m more worried abt my camera!!! Her class left at about 9am to the Island… since she had bowling, she would be there at 3pm… so she had to be at Marina Bay by 1.30 to catch the 2pm boat. We had to leave for Marina Bay at 11.45am… at that time she was in her 2nd game at her second last frame so we decided to finish the last game.

Took a cab down… haha, she ended up being a little too early. I suppose to meet mum at Somerset by 12.30 but we took so long I ended up being late…. got there at like 1. The cab driver dropped us one bus stop away from the MRT station so I had to walk which took about 5 to 10mins while pulling Da’s ball. Haha, mum and I went to do our little shopping, had lunch and mum had to go to shaw center to get some work done… all of that was done between 1pm to 2pm. Wahahaha…….

So now I am all alone for the last few days of my holiday…. Sa’s gone for 10months… (she’ll be back for holiday in July’08) and baby’s gone to St John’s Island till Sunday and right after her trip, she’s going to work…. for her holiday…. work work work…. *sigh*….

Tmr is Saturday…. and I am going to accompany my sis to town and bugis to get some last minute shopping done for her wedding. I have pretty much done all the shopping I need. Just wanna get a cardigan and need to buy a pair of white shoes for the wedding in Jan. I have tons of shoes now… but sadly, they are all bronze or cream… but none white or black. Hee… oh well…

Da’s got this new friend that I keep teasing her about… she kinda looks bungs but apparently is attracted to them…. weird eh…. but anyway, she acts very differently from a friend so I keep teasing Da that she likes her…. wahahaha…… but I’m usually not wrong abt something like this…. hee…. interesting eh…

Ok normally, I wouldn’t have this down but since Sa left I thought this was the only way for her to catch up without writting emails or letter, since she’s too darn lazy to write emails….

Here are some pics from the airport…


I am seriously getting way too fat…. aarrgghh


It will be a very long time from now till Sa comes back and we take another photo together…


Sa’s first charm bracelet! I found it an Mintmark and Co…. so now we have just bought a plain chain and the letter ‘S’…. as the years go buy, Steff and I will send Sa a charm… like on her bday or christmas… we haven’t decided which occasion… hee

Da, I know you have work to pay off something and to buy ur ball… but it’s ur holiday so take some time to rest k? Ur health is more important…. if u get sick or get injured, you can’t bowl… so ur health and rest must come first, k? love u much much…

Hey sa! It’s 12.17am now in SG…. weather is damn hot…. U ain’t missing much. U’ll be starting sch like next week so enjoy it! Steff smsed me this morning and asked if u had msged me. She thought that u would sms us when u had arrived in the UK… told her that u had to get a new line and stuff… anyway, do let me knw once u’ve settled in… must be very busy now…. say ‘hi’ to daniel n ur mum for me!

my last week of rest…

Posted on September 19, 2007 by alicia.
Categories: Mooings.

It’s less than one week before school starts…

my results came out last week… nothing great but hey… better than failing!! Got 2 C+, 1 C, 2 D+ and 1 D…. my gpa still sucks really bad….

My timetable…. is the worst of all that I have ever gotten!!! I have never seen such a bad timetable… I start between 8am to 10am everyday!!! And on Mondays, Tuesdays and Thursdays I end at 4 to 5pm!!!! I’m trying to put my gems on a Thursday afternoon so that I have my Wed n Fri afternoons free!!! Well, the registration is today at 3pm but I won’t be able to make it so I asked MrThamTham to help me register… hee…. just love him…

Today’s the day!!! Sa’s leaving tonight!!!!!!!! *sigh*…. Steff and I have doing something for her the last 2 weeks… hope she likes it. Can’t believe just 8 years ago, this day was only a conversation…. time really passes quickly!!

Ok so the plan for today is…. gonna meet Da for lunch, cause she work at 4pm, then come home to meet steff to finish our gift to sa, then meet Kevin and then go to the airport and get there by 7.30pm. Having dinner with Sa, Daniel and Auntie Maggie. Gonna wait for like 2hours then Sa’s gonna leave…. *sigh*…

Just on Monday, Steff and I took Sa and auntie maggie out for lunch… It was kinda like my first time treating them. Went to Ding Tai Fung… think that’s how it’s spelt… then we went for round 2 at Imperial Jade in Taka. The food at DingTaiFung was not bad… I loved their small veggie… hee… direct translation from chinese…..

Oh steff also…. finally bought me my birthday present…. MAC make up!!! Pink eyeshadow and water proof eyeliner.

After the food, steff had to go to work so Auntie Maggie, Sa, Daniel (Came at the end of round2) and I went shopping. Sa needed to buy shoes and stuff. Half way Auntie Maggie had to go off, cause she had an appointment with the doc. Sa bought like 2 pairs of GEOX shoes… AHHH!!!!!!!! One of them which she bought is really nice…. well that could be because I picked iT!!! I showed it to Sa and tried it on…. she found it really nice too… tried it… and bought it!!!!!!! If only it wasn’t sooooooooooooooooooo expensive, I wouldn’t mind getting it….

After all that we went to Compass Point for a while before heading home….

Hmmm….. On Friday It’s the beginning of Da’s holiday…. and the last day of mine!!! That’s soooo shit… She’ll be leaving for St John’s too on that day…. then she can’t make up her mind on whether or not to go for bowling in the morning on that day…. she keeps changing her mind!!!! She’ll be gone for 3 days…. well actually 2… she’ll be back on Sunday afternoon. Will miss her… *sigh*… love u dada!!

scared….

Posted on September 10, 2007 by alicia.
Categories: Mooings.

It’s the middle of my freaking holiday….

and I have done nothing but watch Japanese Drama and movies….

well…. other than meeting up with sarah, auntie maggie, bu, liwei, andrew and chandra…. and of course spending time with dada….

But right now… my heart is skipping 3 beats…. it’s keeping me from enjoying what’s left of my holiday and my sleep….

In about 48 hours time, my exam results will be out and out murder what’s left of me…. I’m dying here…. thinking… ‘what if i fail a module… again?’…. I have 1 forward module under my belt at the moment as it is…. and if I have another?

I am on the verge of quitting… if not by the forward modules itself than by the fact that I am giving up on education as a whole…. but I know I will surely regret it in time to come if I do drop out.

I look at those who got less than a polytechnic education and the earnings they get…. *sigh*…. it ain’t enough for me to save and then move out to get my own place….

what if….

I just don’t know what to do anymore…. the feeling…. i am at lost here….

2007 is pssing by very quickly…. in less than 2 weeks, sarah will be flying off to the UK to study….

Just today…. my second sister left for AU… and in about a month’s time…. 3 weeks…. m eldest sister will be flying off to Brisbane for her AU wedding…. of which I will not be attending because of school.

Right now…. my biggest concern is…. my results on wednesday…. Da keeps telling me it’s going to be alright…. but you just know it isn’t until it is…. having this scared feeling in your stomach…. ‘what if I fail?’….. i just can’t stand it… the nagging feeling…. the feeling of defeat…. the feeling of failure…..

Human beings…. the trials…. the decisions…. the consequences….
is it a game…?
why do we have it?
what are we suppose to do with it?

we spend 6 years being innocent….
enjoy the beauty of earth and
life’s wonders
14 years gaining knowledge….
racing for a spot in society….
40 years building up what we believe to be important
gaining what we believe to be important…
at the end…
how much time do we have left to look back at our lives
and believe…. truly…
that this is how it was meant to be…