time

2008 has been plagued with heartache….

as each week passes I hear of more break ups and heart breaks and no patch ups….
the year to be believed as a good year has turned out to be the worst so far… people are getting hurt and everyone is feeling the purest pf pain…

i love my friends very much and it hurts to see them go through such heartache even thought i am going through one myself but at the same time I am glad. Cause we all understand how it feels and can comfort each other at a time like this…. Instead of leaning on those who, will logically tells us things that we already know.

When a loved one says, ‘I need time to sort out all the shit in my life’ and then shall return…. BUT i do not know when. what do you do? Do you resent the person, which is natural thing to do or… support the person and say ok take the time.

When a loved one accuses you of cheating but you never did… what do you do? After tirelessly convincing that person that there was never any cheating but that person still does not want to believe you.

When you unintentionally heart someone you love and get hurt yourself by the decisions you make and how the cards were dealt, what do you do? Torn between what you think is love and what you feel is love and your future.

So one of my friends said to me that you know you truly love someone when there is nothing about that person that disgusts you… turns you off. Irritation and annoyance is one thing but being disgusted with someone to the extent that you don’t want to be seen with that person.

Right….

Well, my simple question to myself and my friends was this….
How do you know that during the time you were together, that person really truly loved you? That you were just some conquest and something unattainable.
Similarity between us was that we were all unattainable in different ways…

What I learnt in the last 3 years is that sometimes, well most of the time, the most logical thing is the hardest and the one we don’t want to follow or hear.

Logic is useless in relationships.
Hope is a stupid and annoying idea
Love is the purest of pain.

So right now, I have turned skeptical on the whole love thing… well sort of.

A holiday sounds so delicious right now…

Time… time is nothing but a ticking time bomb. It is one day going to kill every single last organism on this earth and there is nothing we can do about it. All we can do…. is die… and when that happens… what you did.. wouldn’t matter.
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For the last 4 days, I have left like doing nothing but mope….. i just wanted to sit and do nothing. Absolutely nothing.

But on Saturday, I did feel like doing something…. spending my money. Yes I know it isn’t the wises thing to do but when I am upset I don’t start eating tones of food, I shop. I set out with knowing what I wanted to buy. A jacket. Not a sweater, a Jacket. And I did not find on on Saturday evening. I almost wanted to buy a watch…. argh….

But I did however find a jacket the next day…. at RipCurl for like $50 which I was very happy about. I ended up buying another Bikini though…..

Met up Bu last night… sigh…. so depressed…. depression is constant companion…

well whatever… i still want to mope for the rest of the week.

Iris

And I’d give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t want to go home right now

I just want you to know who I am

Gay couple celebrates 50 years!

Ok it’s 8.24am in the morning and I was doing my usual rounds round the internet.

So one of my daily stops is at Pink is the new Blog. Thanks to Mabel, she’s given me an extra site to visit, next to CNN, MTV Movie Blog, Afterellen, Stephenie Meyer, TwilightLexicon and some others.
So back to the reason for such an early morning post, something caught my eye when I was scanning through his summary after every day’s post. It’s an article from the Towleroad about a gay couple celebrating their….. 50th Anniversary!!!!!!!!!!!! 50 freaking years!!!

I have to admit it’s…. admirable…. not many straight couples can go back 20 years and with all the backlash gays have been enduring the last…. well… forever, this really puts a smile on people’s faces. I think it’s really sweet when couples, straight or gay, can last for so long.

I guess these two give gays/lesbian couples the hope they need and maybe the understanding that you don’t have get married legally on paper to know that you are actually married. It’s how you feel and the understanding between the two.

it’s sooo damn sweet!!

Ok, the full article is here at the Washblade.

Congrats to the couple!!

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Miss You Love

movie and dinner

Finally! I finally got to catch a horror movie yesterday!

I headed down to town right after work and surprisingly it took me much longer to get there then I thought. It actually took my an hour and a half to get to town… Hmmm…

Dropped by Cotton On to change a shirt, Jarad was nice enough to accompany me. Funny thing was, Kitty, Ricky and Choryew were already at Borders!!

Yup, we had dinner at Borders Bristo. I know a lot of you might think…. expensive!!! Nope,  not at all. Ok, not with Franc/Jeremy there. Going there with them is actually cheaper than going to Pasta Mania and maybe even Fast Food joints. Why? We get their 30% staff discounts!!!! Wahahaha….

So!!! Our yummylious food!!!
Their pastas are damn good!!

Cesar Salad!!! Just plain Cesar…

I forgot what this is called but it’s damn good!! I will find out its name….

Carbonara with white wine sauce!!

Eh…. forgot what this one is called too but it’s not that great…. the type of pasta doesn’t go well with the sauce….

spicy sausages…..

So Kitty, Jarad, Franc and I went to watch The Orphanage…. ok the reason why I love horror movies is not because I like to scare myself but because horror movies usually have a past story behind them. History actually, which is why i like them so much.

The same goes with this movie…. there’s a history.

There were scary scenes and all but all in all, the story line was pretty sad.

Ok, I shall not spoil it for those who wanna watch it but… it’s not a bad movie… but I have seen worse and better ones.

happy weekend…

It is the 3rd last week of ITP!! 2 more more weeks to go!!!!!!!!!

Am so happy….

Ok so, last weekend was an extended weekend. Thanks to good Friday.

Right, so I thought since Friday was a public holiday so I could wake up late but no……. my ‘wonderful’ mur der decided, ‘lets annoy my kid’, so she decides that we shall all wake up at 6,55am and go to church. FUCKING 6.55am! That’s the same time I wake up to go to work! Bloody freaking hell!!!!

So fine, she wakes me up and since I had to go meet Bu and the guys at like 12noon, I decided to get ready for that too. So right after church, I would go straight out. Mass starts at 8am and apparently the mur der wanted to get there by like 7.30 or something but didn’t tell me so I took my time to get ready and all…. she kept yelling and yelling and then went downstairs to wait and then called my phone when I didn’t go down. Blah blah blah.

Well, geez…. if you are gonna force people to go to something they don’t want to go then deal with the fact that they are going to give you a hard time and hate you! well, still not talking to her right now… but it will blow over eventually.

Right, moving on….. I had to go home anyway after church cause I had forgotten one or two things. Had to reach town a bit early cause I had to go to Far East and collect my 10,000BC tix and then go send my phone for servicing again!!!!!!!!! Bloody Nokia didn’t fix my phone and returned it to me. Thank goodness it only took an hour.

Met up with Gim at Somerset… stupid Andrew told everyone to come at 12noon but he didn’t arrive till 12.30! argh….

Chan, andrew, gim, bu n i went to have lunch at some steak place in Cini…. Yummy!(I honestly forgot that I was not to eat meat that day)

Then we went to FarEast…. since Andrew and Hariz’s bday was in March we decided to go get them presents… (had to call suren to make sure Hariz’s bday was in March)…. haha. Got andrew pants and a shirt…. hariz, we went to TopMan and got him a shirt. For some reason, Bu has got a fetish for chakard shirts…. both the guys got chakard chirts… just different colour….

We wanted to watch ‘The Orphanage’ so we headed to Lido… cause I hadn’t been there in such a long time… they had seats but it required us to be split up so we thought, nvm… we go to Cini…. and at Cini…… NO SEATS!!!!! We tried calling GV and the other Cathy’s…. NO SEATS!!! Bloody hell!

It’s been a long time since we met the guys… ok let me rephrase that… it has been a long time since we met….. suren and pong. Haven’t seen those 2 in almost 3 damn long years! Pong’s got shoulders!!! Meat on his arms!!!!!!!!!! Wahahahaha….. ooops, sorry.

We headed down to Suntec BY BUS…. the last time we walked, the guys almost died and wanted to kill us. Plus Bu has grown unfit to walk long distances…. LOUSY!!!!!!! Went to Gelare for ice-cream…. we basically walked around aimlessly… ans waited till Suren came then we went for dinner at Swensons…

Chicken Cutlet…. 4 of them!!!!!

Fish&Chips…. 3 of them!

N Hariz’s Mac&Cheese!
Anyways…. was supper happy to see them all…. makes my year…

PingPongPing!!!!!!!

The most common thing said when we saw these photos…. Holy shit! I’m fat!… and it’s said by Bu, Gim n Me…. it’s a real wake up call…. we have put on some weight… especially me… AH!!

10,000BC

I finally went to the movies yesterday!!

Right so after work, I headed home to change and rest. Since the others don’t finish work till like 6pm, it actually gives me quite a bit of time to go home and all. Thank goodness I went home first cause apparently, even though I smsed my mum and told her I’d be home late for dinner, (thinking that she’ll go out for dinner with daddy n buy back) when I got home they were waiting for me. So since I was home at like 6pm and the movie was at 7.30pm, I decided to go for dinner with folks. Went to concord (coffeeshop infront of SRJC, has super yummy food & good service) and had the usual…. KangKong, Egg Omelet and Beancurd. After which, I took a walk to the Kovan MRT and headed down to Cathy.

So despite going home, changing and having dinner… when I got to Cathy…. my darling polymates hadn’t eaten and had JUST bought the tix. Hmmm…. They went to QuickBites, the food there was actually not bad.

For the first time since the exams ended I saw YiXian, super long! Wait…. I haven’t seen Shiying in a long time either. Haha.

Watched 10,000BC with… Kitty, Ricky, ChorYew and Mama. Since I missed Jumper, I was determined to catch 10,000BC in theaters, whether or not it is a good movie. Crappy thing for me is, just yesterday afternoon I checked my e-mail and found out that I won tix from 77th Street to watch 10,000BC. ARgh… but nevermind.

Now, when I knew this movie was coming out I didn’t care much for the story line, I wanted to watch it cause of the oh-so-cute Steven Strait and beautiful Camilla Belle who both look quite different in this movie.

Steven Strait

Looks really different doesn’t he…? Both pictures were not taken that long ago. The one with the younger looking straight, no long dreads and facial hair was taken in 2006, a screen shot from The Covenant.

Camilla Belle

Either way, Camilla Belle always looks beautiful. Even as a kid… she was sooo pretty. Ok only difference here is… in 10,000BC, she’s wearing blue contacts. Her natural eye colour is brown.

Now about the movie… Hmmm…. it wasn’t that fantastic… in fact, i think we ended up laughing more than anything else. We kept having debates about certain things… I have to admit, there were scenes that were pretty cool but all in all… I’m a little disappointed.

Throughout the movie, Camilla Belle’s character, barely said much. Her script was probably a page long… maybe 2. Steven Strait… eh… he was fine i guess… nothing much. And most of the screens were of people staring. When younger Evolet was introduced to D’Leh’s tribe, everyone was staring at her. When D’Leh was at the African village, everyone was staring at him. When D’Leh was in the prison, staring again. Before they went to fight, everyone stares again. Wahaha…. Then when D’Leh and TicTic went to the African tribe and there was this one guy who could speak their language (english), he was taught by D’leh’s dad and speaks pretty well too. We were wondering, wow, one guy teaches another guy and… without practise (cause D’Leh’s Dad leaves) speaks pretty good english!

Mammoths were fine… Sabertooth looked a little fake…. then there were the birds… Kitty n I had quite a debates about them…

so here’s how they kinda look like… (it was the best picture I could fine)

now, to me… the look like huge ugly fierce baby birds… Kitty says… they look like Ostriches… hmmm….

then in the movie, this old woman has vision of an invasion and speaks of this 4 legged demon… and in her vision you see a silhouette of a man sitting on a horse. So when you think 4 legged demon and see that image, normal people will presume that it’s the horse they’re referring to right? Well, not for Kitty…. she went from horse to thinking it was that big bird….. 4 legs! And she thinks bird….!!!!!!!!!!! Not to mention when she saw the drowning sabertooth, she thought it was a sealion!!!!!!!!!!!!! Initially she called it a sea horse. The wonders of Kitty Tan…..

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Right so after the movie, we went to Ben&Jerry’s for snacks! Ok, fine it was ice-cream. So yummy…..

Now today will hopefully be a peaceful and calm day… I really need to have a nice relaxing day.

Tomorrow…. I am finally meeting up with my ITE hunks and babes! Andrew’s birthday is coming and I haven’t seen them since Christmas and since I am on ITP I thought, why not meet up. So a whole herd of us will be heading down to Kaplan in town to pick bu up from school. It should consist of Andrew, Chan, Gim, Hariz, Arik, Suren, Pong, Liwei and Me…. almost a complete set! We’re only missing like 4 guys!

Can’t wait to catch up with them all tmr…!

My baby’s coming home tonight!!!!! (my nokia xpress music)

super sleepy……………..

I am SUPER SLEEPY!!

argh…. i wanna go home and sleep!!

Ok so Friday was SUPER long… yes everything in the pass 3 days have been SUPER.

So I left work a little early on Friday…. went home to change and all and then went to meet Jarad at Hougang Mall. The little shit finished work at 5.30pm…. so I had to go meet him first…. and we waited for Mama and Mabel for like more than an hour! By the time they came I was starving! So we just walked to one of Kovan’s food centers and ate. Ate till we were so fat! Kitty and Ricky didn’t come till like 9 or 10pm! Why…. because Ricky wanted to go to the HOngKong Cafe to eat!! So we played Monopoly for a while till Sheng Yuan came… and then we started…. so from 11pm till like 8.30am!!!!!!!!!!! Between that mabel and Kitty went to watch Beauty and the Beast. Mama went to sleep and then Mabel went to sleep only at like 6am.

We decided to pay with money and I won! $12. Haha.

Slept the whole day Saturday…. from 11am onwards… haha…

Met Da on Sunday… walked around Town and went to buy Nutty’s food… poor baby girl eats sooo much, she didn’t have anymore food. Oh well….

Went to the airport to see Aunty Maggie off and also to give a her a few things to pass to Sa.

Just 3 more weeks left… i just can’t wait….

Ok this entry is super short cause I am falling asleep!!!!!!!!!!