lies & deceit

I’m sitting in the chair writhing in agony.
A demon a minor demon, is pinning me there, fucking with my head. 

“Abraxas.”
He says… 
“I’m Abraxas the demon of lies and deceit.”
“So, what do you want to know about lies my dear?”
I’m not a liar, I try again to get up, this time I’m flayed, splayed. I feel myself screaming. 
“I will tell you about lies. There are white lies and black lies…and many shades of grey lies, but some lies are justified. Lies told out of kindness, lies that preserve dignity…lies that spare pain. Everyone’s a liar dear. Look at them…she is about to tell her lover something patently untrue.”
“Look at their gestures, see how they touch each other too intimately, how they avert their eyes and cover their mouths. They lick their teeth and hold their chins. They embellish their stories with far too much detail.” 

-Jenny Schecter-

 

it seems you’re my natural enemies…
the dismiss button automatically switches on when your presence is felt…
it’s nothing personal…
your shallow thoughts….
uncouth mannerisms…
dense personalities…
i’m sorry but if u weren’t so thick u’d realise i’m a little different…
in more than one way….
you lead them to shallow waters blindfolded…
they trust you… but yet… you drown them…
i’ve seen enough…
i’ve taken myself into the abyss and back to know better…
hush now….
 

 

 

study

It’s 9.15pm and I’m sitting infront of ash’s comp at SHAW McCafe….

Came out today to study TMS…. ugh… so tired…
had Crsytal Jade Congee for dinner….
soooo congee doesn’t stay in our tummies for very long…
got hungry..
waiting for vans and ash to come back with nuggets…
Mac is the only thing open at this time of the night…
and it’s cheap… most importantly….

7 Topics and I’m at the 5th one already…. yippie!
considering the fact that I started at 3plus….

ok their back… eating time…!

happy birthday kitty!

good morning cruel world!!!!!!

right, so no school the last 2 days….
but i still headed to school yesterday to meet ricky etc….
went to tomato to celebrate kitty’s bday…
Tomato @ PS has always been a nice place to go when most of ya friends are broke….
food’s pretty good…
service is good too… 

Kitty’s first mp3 player!!!!
Creative Zen Mozaic
2G

we have been cracking our heads on what to get her…
then mabel realised, Kitty’s never owned an mp3 player….
she only listens to her music on her comp…
so then….
what kind of mp3 player….????
Initially APPLE was the answer…
BUT…. we realised….
Kitty wouldn’t know how to use it….
as easy as everyone says it is….
she still wouldn’t know how to use it….
so we had to pick one that was relatively nice….
easy to use… REAL easy to use…
Thus…. Creative…. click, hold, drag and drop….

roamed around PS for like an hour or so…
couldn’t decide where to go and what to do….
in the end…. RICKY’s place….
that’s usually the answer to all our problems…
Yixian was carrying a bottle of Raspberry Vodka in her bag…
so we headed to Carrefore and bought mixers….
2 bottles of Sprite, a 6 pack of Flyingdog and root beer….

while the rest went to head over to Ricky’s I went to meet john, ash n vans….
went to dempsey for Ben&Jerry’s & nachos….
yums!
first time being there actually….
then…..
we had nothing to do…
john was nice enough to drop me off at ricky’s…
and so……. the drinking begins….

Ricky’s gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tsk tsk tsk….

Jarad…. KO

j

 

and all the time we were playing and drinking,
shengyuan was playing on the comp and shaun was being the butterfly that he is….
abandoned us!!!!!!!!
aaassssssssssshhhhhoooooollllllleeeeeee……… 

left around 3am….
apparently, i can’t really sleep over at people’s place….
I mean I can,….
just…..
my bed’s my everything….
lol…..

WwwwEEEeeee……. PARTYING next week!!!!!!!!!!!!
tests will be OVER and 3 weeks of holidays will swallow us whole!!!!!
CHRISTMAS is coming….
got 2 parties to attend….
yay yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it’s quite ironic….
usually when mabel, kitty, yixian and I go clubbing,
we have to ask kitty, yixian and I if we can go and stuff…
mabel is usually the one who doesn’t need to be asked… just told….
but now…. hahahaha….
she’s the only one who has to be asked…..
amazing what bf’s can do….

k gotta get ready…
study date with vans and ash…
although ash has nothing to STUDY!!!!!!!!
bloody ent students…

st james

The start of my holidays!!

ok not really…. i still have MST…

anyways…. went to StJames last night with Vans and Ash last night…
Ash’s friend’s bday party….
yeah…. me meeting new people…
soooooooooo not me….
i’m like uberly antisocial….
but it was fine anyway….

had a couple of drinks….
Martel…..  eeEeeee…. don’t like…
but like always…. didn’t get drunk….
never do anyway….
don’t like the idea of it….

ash got wasted…
wahahahahaha….
quite funny….
she said we’d leave early… like midnight….
ended up staying there till 2 to 3am!!!
absolutely crazy….
hahaha…. k k….
so here are some of the pics from last night…
i tried to keep as many unglam pics of ash out of the post….
wahahahahahaha….
quite hard though….
everything else is in an album….
with password…. on request….
LOL…. 

wahahahaha…….. for ur viewing pleasure….

see that crap??? noooo…. it’s not puke… just cake… lol

ricky!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ooopps……. NOT

hahaha…. i actually miss clubbing a little….
hmmm….. might wanna take a trip down to PLAY during the holis….
Phuture or St James…. 

woke up this morning and immediately did my OM report…..
finished it in like 2 hrs….
i kept walking around and doing other things… hahaha
then at 2pm… i fell asleep again… hahaha…

ain’t no school tmr again….
yay!
but celebrating kitty’s bday…. 
don’t know what r the plans yet though…

SAW marathon at danial’s house during xmas season!!!!!!!!!!!!
wwWoohHOO….
last month he invited us to his place….
there was an email sent to all of us…
guess what…
I had only just saw it….
for the FIRST time…..
and this is what he said: note to self: snail mail to alicia faster than e-mail 
hhhmmmmm…… 

it has been done…
the purchase is made….
i shall reveal it in about a month’s time…. 

 

 

it felt like i was thrown in to that damn rabbit hole again….
but i was neither small nor big…
i was invincible… again…
why am i beating myself up over it again?
it happened then…
it’s happening now…
i just never showed the emotion….
maybe that’s y i shun away from the norm… 
 

Twilight… ‘New Moon’ in the making

it’s saddening to know that the whole of the US of A has caught ‘Twilight’…
while we Islanders have to wait till 18th Dec…

but good news….
Summit has given the green light for ‘New Moon’….
I hope that I won’t be too disappointed with ‘Twilight’…
and will then be able to enjoy ‘New Moon’….
reviews for it has been pretty ok recently…
as expected, it’s not as good as the book…
but hey,
which movie is…
the movie grossed over $7million over the weekend….

right so i’m kinda leaning more to the idea of getting the jewelry set…
but i’m also kinda looking for turquoise stoned bracelets….
can’t seem to find nice ones… sigh….

xmas is coming….
ugh…..
the season to be giving…
the season to be receiving…
the season to be stressing…
the season to be reflecting…
the season to be acting like retards…
the season to be loving…
the season to be expecting…
the season to be disappointed…
the season to be feeling the things that you’ve stopped feeling….
the season of seasons…

hello again….

Just came home from JB…
just went in to see the FT and eat lunch….
lunch was yummy man….
like always….
went in at 10am…. and come out at 3pm….
yeah… uberly short trip…
oh well…
good… I’m damn sleepy….

thinking of getting my hands on “Into the Wild’
been wanting it since…. well, since it came out in 2007….
the book was good…
now I just wanna watch it…

Lion King and Oliver & Company are swimming in my mind as well…
my childhood is only a click away….

and I’ve been eyeing at the whole jewelry set…
it’s like 4X cheaper than buying them one by one…
and they actually look pretty nice….
wanna figure out what I’m talking about??? 
hahaha…
think ash would knw immediately….
i shall reveal it when i decide whether to get it or not…. 
ugh…. thinking….
been looking at bracelets…
my old ones are… well…
OLD….  need to get rid of some of them…
they’ve been with me since like Secondary 1~!!!
holy crap…. 

Twilight was released on Friday….
ugh…. and we mere humans on this island have to wait till dec…
don’t know why they r making us wait so long when the hype is soooo large…
if prawn manages to work a miracle i might not bother with the large screen….
the reviews for it apparently are quite good…
not as good as the book..
BUT good…. 

 

 

Just say “when” and you’ll stop the pain of your life, 
Bring it to an end.
Just say “when” and you could make amends - lost prophets

Food Implosion, IKEA, Movie & STARBUCKS…

I’m home!!!
Just came home from town with ash n vans….
initially wanted to stay home today but got a msg from ash saying that she was going to pierce her brow today….
and I wanted to go see…
was suppose to go to malaysia this evening but daddy was tired so cancelled….
in the end i went to watch ‘Wild Child’ with them…
the show wasn’t bad…. 
it was actually pretty nice….
had starbucks for tea…. yums…. cinnamon roll…. banana muffin…. 

had dinner at ding tai fung…. 
walked round and round town….
ended up at cini’s HK cafe….
supper…..
waaahh……
think i’m gonna burst….
even though i didn’t eat much…..

ok so the week’s update…
a little shopping here and there….
eating all the way…
yoga…. loving it….
but the highlight of the week is FOOD IMPLOSION!!!!!!

The SEMI FINALS…. THURSDAY

THE FOOD
 

ROUND 1 - DANIAL’S TEAM
 

ROUND 2 - RICKY, JEREMY, SHENGYUAN & KITTY

THE PUKE…. FROM SOME OTHER TEAM

went out on Thursday after school with prawn to buy his pants for CSB interview on Friday…
then had dinner at crystal jade taka with vans n ash….
headed to kino to get ‘In Style’ mag…
starbucks with just vans n ash….
it seems like every time we go out we only leave after 11pm….

FRIDAY…..
FOOD IMPLOSION FINALS!!!

THE FOOD….
 
8 doughnuts….
4 packets of Vitosoy… (think that’s how it’s spelt…)
1 box of cornflakes…
1 whole fried chicken….
4 bottles of new water…
1 bottle of sparkling juice…
2 plates of macroni
1 whole cake…
Rule: The whole team must finish item by item….
eg. ALL of them must finish the doughnuts before they can go on to the cornflakes…

THE TEAM…. we were rooting for…
 

THE WINNERS….
woOOohHhoOOOo!!!!!!! 

Finally kinda finished the USA notice board on Friday…
ok not really….
we pasted everything up then realised that we didn’t have enough double sided tape for the boards..
plus I’ve been putting off printing mel steph’s pics….
but I’ve gotta do them next week…
def….

*sigh*…..
soooo wanna do a little shopping on amazon…
the bracelets!!!!!
the arm band…
oOOoOo….. pretty… 

FRIDAY dinner was at IKEA

Herring Salad….

and a little shopping….

ash picking out a ‘chair’/'bin’ for her room….

ok pics we took…. some time in the week….
actually… it may have been friday… hahaha…. 

 

one more week of school then it’s mst week…
got a 1000 word report due by Friday….
plus BD’s financial analysis…
No school on Thursday and Friday….
No news on when is LIT tested…
NEED to go for more yoga…
think it’s time to head down to RP to study….
need to do notes for TMS and LIT….

malaysia… JB…. tmr with folks…