tiring…

FUCKING STRESS!!!!!!!!!!

I’m biting everyone & every things head off…
am sitting on the bed, waiting for my groupmate to send me stuff so that I can finish the rest….

this week’s been hectic….
presentation on  Tuesday… went ok.
it’s COMs project and SOCI that is driving me nuts….
couldn’t finish studying for soci….
had to learn how to cut scenes from a movie last minute…
a billion thanks to kelvin…. as always… coming to my rescue…

I still have the stupid damn ESL essay and journal to do….
OMG…..
I hate the woman’s lesson….
Thank goodness I don’t have to do ESL408 next sem…
speaking of next sem…
I’ve planned my timetable and I’m pretty happy with it…
if I get what I planned then I won’t have school on Mondays….
although I do have to be in school at 9am every other day…
wOhOOO!!!
awesome…

travelled all over the island on Sat….
first to yishun in the morning…
then to CCK Lot 1…
then to Tamp Safra…. to collect shirt and then at the same time watch IVP 
ashie was uber nice to come meet me at Tamp…
she came to help me with some review…
I had forgotten to do my SOCI review so I was rushing to complete it and send it that night…
also my ESL essay draft…. 
thanks ash a million for your help…

had a sleep over with ashie and jas last night…
yeah man…
midnight supper of Mc…. 

anyways….
have had the car for a week now….

B’s been uber patient & sweet to me this last week….
especially since my temper’s been so darn short lately… 
she took me to eat dim sum at Geylang the other day…
YUMS… 

and….

bought me free…. for all the month-erise

at first we just got the tank, 5 neon fish and sand…

 
then just yesterday, we got a plant and a fungus ball…
I LOVE MY FUNGUS BALL!!
SO FUCKING CUTE!

Thanks B…

luckily daddy came home this morning…
had to ask him for help with the fish…
think they were dying…
wahahaha 

daddy came home from china and brought Jade….

I am not in exactly a blogging mood…….
just blogged cause I haven’t in days…. 

I cannot wait for my december holidays….
or at least for this hectic week to be over…

6.43am

I’m feeling the pressure…
the pressure of getting good grades… 
but somehow I can’t help but feel pessimistic  

I need to get an average of a B for my modules….
and yet, I feel I am unable to do so…

I need to As the COMS blog…
generate comments…
have a really good finally post…
do really well for the project….
hope and pray the prof won’t be an asshole and play biases
I just don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel…

CSE….
the module that saddens me…
theory wise I am screwed….
I just hope my projects are enough to pull up my grade to a C…
hoping to drive myself crazy for finals…
maybe a B is still possible? 

I am trying to be optimistic about Sociology cause there’s still hope for that…
and I kinda like the subject so I am hoping studying for it won’t be annoying….

I am hoping ESL will be the one to brighten up my day….
english…
essay…. journals….
so far so good…
i think…
I’ve been to class  every lesson….

in a nutshell..
UNI’s been giving me a lot of worry….
I can’t find but have the feeling of helplessness….
I can’t help but feel like giving up is the only option….
so stressed out about it…
I need a lot of time to study…
UGH…. not making it any easier…

FUCK IT.
 

Decisions…. Schedules….. Time

awesome…

Had lunch at Hougang Plaza with B and Mark this afternoon…
went to eat the western food…YUMS…
bus-ed down to Far East Plaza…
The damn bus took 30mins to come…..
stupid ass bus driver..

B got to work just on time…
I walked to ION TopShop to get Jace’s top changed…
trained to Dhoby….
the weather was scorching hot….
so there was no way I was going to walk there…
met Ball & Sherwin…
missed the two guys….
even though I have met Ball quite a bit this year already….
but he’s been busy with work…
and sherwin’s been busy with NS….
had dinner at Cathay Astons…
WOOTS!
double meat bang of the day…

foooood….. uh… good…

Ball’s Ribeye…. M.R

Sherwin’s Grilled Fish

and my Sirloin… M.W

had Ben & Jerry’s Merlion for desert….

cookie dough, mint chocolate, phish food, cookies and cream, strawberry yogurt and chocolate macadamia 

and then caught ‘Julie & Julia’…..

man… the show’s good…
it’s a definitely must watch…
it never got boring…
the actors were awesome…
loved Meryl Streep & Jane Lynch as sisters…
Meryl Streep was just adorable as Julia Child…
Julie Powell and Julia Child are the envy of all women…
cause their husbands were so supportive and understanding….
I think the men silently stole the show….
*TIP: Don’t watch the show before a meal… it’ll make you SUPER hungry….
and not I feel like cooking….
hahaha…. 

after the movie we rushed down to FEP cause Chippy was closing and Ball wanted to eat vinegar fish…
we sat and talked while waiting for B to end work…
had durian pancake too…. 

took a train and made a impromptu decision to eat Tao Huey at Geylang….
ended up talking till pass midnight….
great to catch up with sherwin…
while ball was…. passing some of his wisdom/knowledge to B….
hmmm…..
I shall be nice and think of the good things…
hahaha…
thanks ball 

meeting my ITE friends once in a while is very therapeutic….
makes me remember that I’m not alone…
and having proper conversations is like… yeeesssssssss……
i can’t get that from the UNI people….
but that could be because I can’t be bothered with them…
and I have to agree with ash… birds of a feather, flock together…
I realise my circle of friends are all a little weird/unique….
similar in some ways…. bitchy… assholes…. sarcastic…
hahaha… 

cabbed home….
now Criminal Minds Season 5!!
WOHOOOOO!!

tmr maths revision with Ms Wong 
and lunch-ing with the folks…

Key to My Life….

he was soooooo darn cute in this video… *sigh*

what a meh week….

sitting at STARBUCKS PS….
finding a place here is tough….
trying to finish up all my work….
went for facial @ Orchard Plaza in the afternoon…
niccceee…..
then wanted to see the doc about the bleeding but she wasn’t open….
ugh…
so I have wait till Tuesday or something…. 

bought my 2010 planner from Kikki.AU
WOOT! nice…
oopss…..

got a shit load of work to do….
ugh…
I have 4 quizes next week and one mid-term…
eek…

sat for my COM101 midterm…
and it SUCKED….
it was suppose to cover Units 1 to 3….
realized  as I was reading my Unit 4 notes that the midterm had Unit 4 stuff in it…
WTH….  

spoke to my math prof and I might just drop math…
depending on how badly I do on the midterms…
then I will take his class again next sem..
found out that if I get another prof next sem, they might teach differently…..
so I gotta make sure if I resign and take it next sem I get him back…
tuesday and thursday again…

the folks have changed car…
well…
kind of…
they’ve made the deposit on a Silver Honda Feed.
Earliest is Monday… or else we will get the car on Wednesday…
Which is supposed to be passed on to me once I get my license…
and then mum wants to get an SUV… 

been going for my theory lessons….
got another 2 more weeks before I finish my FTT… 

my ipod and jerky is stuck in China…
it was suppose to be in early this week but it turns out I will only get them next week or something. 

had lunch with andrew and chan this week on Wednesday at Holland Subway…
Desert at Cold Rock… NICE…
it’s nice to have some time to meet up with the guys have just chat….
really miss them….
miss the times we did project work…
since they were the BEST groupmates EVER… 
planning at XMAS BBQ in Dec….
a must have…
we barely get to meet up anymore…

meeting Ball & Sherwin tmr…
WOOT! It’s like CATCH-UP week!
Gonna watch ‘Julia & Julie’…
Astons dinner….

can’t wait for Dec…
then I don’t have an excuse not to attend BC or YOGA… 

 YOU’RE A COOCOO HEAD!!!!!!

another one bites the dust….

R.I.P
17 March 1976 – 10 October 2009

another part of my childhood just faded away…..

I envy those who are free to be who they are…
not hiding behind the facade molded by the norm….
to be accepted for being just you….
how I wish that for myself…
i may have all I could ever possess…
but I would trade that all in just to say who I really am…
to walk proud for loveandpride…
maybe one day I could step out behind this mask…
remove the armor you so blindly placed on my back the minute i was born…
unchain the shackles of society…
one day..
maybe…
I hope…

A father talks about his daughter coming out. “I asked her how she knew,” the father says, “and she looked me straight in the eye and she said, ‘Dad, how do you know you’re heterosexual?’ I got it. My truth is that my daughter deserves to be treated with all the same respect and dignity and receive all the same privileges, rights and obligations as her two straight brothers.”  - From The Oprah Winfrey Show Gay for 30 Days

present…/edited

CURRENTLY WATCHING….
CHIP & DALE, RESUCE RANGERS 

woke up to the sounds of drills and bangs….
damn construction….

daddy’s home!!!
went to pick him up at the airport…
and he came baring gifts!
he said I’m always using my comp at my bed…
so…. he got me this!!!!!
 

damn awesome…
and he said that my having so many things and everything I want, makes it difficult for people to buy me gift….
which is true…
my loves had trouble buying me presents this year…
right vans?
right ash?
hahaha….

anyways…. finally got down to buying my belly studs….
weee!!!!!!!!
and i had vans help me pick them out!

vans and I thought this was a flower….
it’s actually a starfish… hahaha
pretty no??
thanks vans!! 

along with this, i bought, Alvin & the Chipmunks Adventure, Land Before Time & Oliver and Company…
woHOooOO!
i have been super old school recently…. 

uber happy…
my ipod nano is in!!
& & & my 1kg worth of JIM BEAN Beef Jerky!!!
WOOT!

so am now sitting at Liat Starbucks….
just finished my ESL Journal 2…
B’s sitting next to me watching her Korean drama she borrowed from mum…
and she’s ignoring me…
had early din din with B at Cedele…

the food’s not bad…
but apparently all this costs more than what Royal Copenhagen charges….
and R.C is like a 3 course meal… including coffee/tea….
hmmm…..
guess B was right… R.C is pretty cheap….

I know what I want for X’MAS!!
since buying me gifts is hard…
i shall TRY to hold off shopping….
was walking around ION with B.
came about this shop called… Kikki… from AU…
they sell organizers… the 2010 ones are out…
there was this nice leather red one… but it costs like $80!!
AHHHHHH……….. BUT NICE………